So many unfortunate things happened lately.
I get mixed feelings of emotions the moment i climbed up the hill.
All for 1 reason, i don't want to see that bastard face. The more i see her, the more anger will get the better of me.
Well, what to do. I'm the slave for the government.
I've been on urgent leave for quite some time. I need time to sort my inner feelings and i know, as long as i've yet to confront that bastard, my mind is still unfocused.
I've missed out the MDB outing as promised to my girls. Once again, i apologise.
I know i'm so lost and fidgeting, fickle minded. Whatever.
Bottom line is, i'm facing such a severe breakdown.
I believed Danish knows how badly crush am i feeling inside me and he has been an angel. He listened to my sorrows and whenever i cry, he will say, mummy... asal mummy cry? Takmo cry okay? Danish sayang mummy. Sweet nya my son.
I cry not because i'm scared but rather i'm too hurt to think of what bastard said and spread rumors.
So why i did not just resign? Well... i'm waiting for the right moment to carry my feet and go. My HOD won't approved me of leaving when i brought up the topic last month. I got potential..blah3...
Anyway, hubby and i went to KL again last Monday to settle some business trip that both of us venture in. Materials will be finalised by end of this week and the items will be place at my mother in law shop and when the business takes off, hubby and i will find a place to rental to place our items in our new shop.
I'm good enough as "DEAD at workplace".
Talk when necessary and if it's not official i won't talk. Simple.
If she is true of performing the "haji", she won't act as a bitch in the first place. Cleanse your heart, your mouth and the way you dress if you're sincere in the first place. Stop bitching about other people, bitch.
