im sick and tired.
why should i do other people job when mine is undone?
why should i care for others feelings when others don't?
why should i give a damn towards others when others don't?
why must i feel guilty for hurting others feelings when others don't?
simple answer to the following above.
i'm too damn fucking nice.
and that's my problem.
i must be mean and firm.
but i'm still clueless why i'm so damn fucking soft hearted.
.
.
.
one reason i believed in my hormone changes, after i got settled down, i've totally mellow down.
to see me yelling or flared up either minor or major issues, it's a rare occasion.
omgosh!
why am i so soft?
.
.
.
this is indeed a cruel yet beautiful life.
i believed there is a reason behind it.
.
.
.
anyway, i'm going for a short getaway this Saturday.
with my family of course.
i realised i can't go anywhere without my two lovely boys.
am constantly thinking of them no matter where i go.
ah.
this is motherhood.
once you're there, only you'll know how it feels.
=)
.
.
.
also, i would like to point out.
our husband is our half soul.
no matter how much denial you have, they do play a role in our life.
wrong?
well, something you should ponder about.
.
.
.
hubby refused to let me quit my job.
he wants a house to shelter us.
a maid to care for our boys while we are at work.
the in dependency that we're going to uphold.
the freedom that we longed wanted.
oh. please god.
make our dreams comes reality.
.
.
.
in case some of you are still clueless.
i'm phobia to clown.
yes clown.
the one with the red nose and painted face.
the big feet. and the curly hair.
i just hate clowns.
.
.
.
on a mental note.
please do not breach what you preach.
can?
one century you said A and the other century you said B.
once A means A.
please okay, don't think you're very secure with your job.
if one day god wants to take it away, he will.
so don't be very over confident.
no job is secure no matter what you claim to be.
even if you're a graduate or what, time will change together with your work.
this is not in the olden days whereas jobs will stay with you for years of service.
it just don't stay that way.
so broaded up your narrowed minded mind.
.
.
.
babe, you know i've been missing you like truckloads.
to think that you gave me up for your new boyfriend, left a deep impact of impression towards you.
i don't know why you changed after a changed of environment.
you're not the one i used to know 5 years back.
don't throw away your upcoming 4 years relationship with him over your new boyfriend.
everyone of us have claws.
we should accept them whole heartily.
forgive and forget.
i believed you too made mistakes along the way.
we aren't perfect.
i too aren't perfect.
i made mistakes along the way.
perseverance is the key in saving relationship.
patience.
.
.
.
i know, every time when i blog, i got tons to blog about.
i don't get to blog on everyday basis like i used to in the past.
work has taken up 1/3 of my life.
.
.
.
on top of everything said here, i do miss my bloggers girlfriends.
hope to see you girls together with your kids on Afiqi's birthday party.
please take note, i've decided to make a small party for darwisy's 1st birthday either at my mom's or McDonald's.
it will be on labour day, Friday 1st May 2009.
please RSVP your attendance at my email.
rin, i hope you could turn up though i know baby is on the way.
hopefully you don't explode on labour day okay?
much love,
Erisyah.
why should i do other people job when mine is undone?
why should i care for others feelings when others don't?
why should i give a damn towards others when others don't?
why must i feel guilty for hurting others feelings when others don't?
simple answer to the following above.
i'm too damn fucking nice.
and that's my problem.
i must be mean and firm.
but i'm still clueless why i'm so damn fucking soft hearted.
.
.
.
one reason i believed in my hormone changes, after i got settled down, i've totally mellow down.
to see me yelling or flared up either minor or major issues, it's a rare occasion.
omgosh!
why am i so soft?
.
.
.
this is indeed a cruel yet beautiful life.
i believed there is a reason behind it.
.
.
.
anyway, i'm going for a short getaway this Saturday.
with my family of course.
i realised i can't go anywhere without my two lovely boys.
am constantly thinking of them no matter where i go.
ah.
this is motherhood.
once you're there, only you'll know how it feels.
=)
.
.
.
also, i would like to point out.
our husband is our half soul.
no matter how much denial you have, they do play a role in our life.
wrong?
well, something you should ponder about.
.
.
.
hubby refused to let me quit my job.
he wants a house to shelter us.
a maid to care for our boys while we are at work.
the in dependency that we're going to uphold.
the freedom that we longed wanted.
oh. please god.
make our dreams comes reality.
.
.
.
in case some of you are still clueless.
i'm phobia to clown.
yes clown.
the one with the red nose and painted face.
the big feet. and the curly hair.
i just hate clowns.
.
.
.
on a mental note.
please do not breach what you preach.
can?
one century you said A and the other century you said B.
once A means A.
please okay, don't think you're very secure with your job.
if one day god wants to take it away, he will.
so don't be very over confident.
no job is secure no matter what you claim to be.
even if you're a graduate or what, time will change together with your work.
this is not in the olden days whereas jobs will stay with you for years of service.
it just don't stay that way.
so broaded up your narrowed minded mind.
.
.
.
babe, you know i've been missing you like truckloads.
to think that you gave me up for your new boyfriend, left a deep impact of impression towards you.
i don't know why you changed after a changed of environment.
you're not the one i used to know 5 years back.
don't throw away your upcoming 4 years relationship with him over your new boyfriend.
everyone of us have claws.
we should accept them whole heartily.
forgive and forget.
i believed you too made mistakes along the way.
we aren't perfect.
i too aren't perfect.
i made mistakes along the way.
perseverance is the key in saving relationship.
patience.
.
.
.
i know, every time when i blog, i got tons to blog about.
i don't get to blog on everyday basis like i used to in the past.
work has taken up 1/3 of my life.
.
.
.
on top of everything said here, i do miss my bloggers girlfriends.
hope to see you girls together with your kids on Afiqi's birthday party.
please take note, i've decided to make a small party for darwisy's 1st birthday either at my mom's or McDonald's.
it will be on labour day, Friday 1st May 2009.
please RSVP your attendance at my email.
rin, i hope you could turn up though i know baby is on the way.
hopefully you don't explode on labour day okay?
much love,
Erisyah.