i'm frustrated.

with the computer for contracting virus from where-i-have-no-idea and the laptop with its broken screen and me typing onto a damaged screen with minimal usage of sight.

can i scream?

arrrrrrrrrrrrrghhh!!!!!



how's your CNY?

mine was okay, i guessed.

my parents went for a short to Genting leaving me with my younger and big brother to take care of. and oh... with the kitten.

in case you people wondering a kitten, well my younger brother decided to adopt a kitten and he named it blu.



it is almost a month now and blu loves to wonder around the house.

she is a very adoraqble little kitten i tell you.

she never bite nor scratch. she's definitely smart.



she purr when she is hungry or wants freedom to roam around the house, other than that she is seen playing by herself at the balcony.



i spent my saturday meeting izah and doing a mini shopping spree which left my bank a total damaged.



am glad that hubby raised the maintance money for me so that at least i can survived till the next payday. hahhahahaha.,



sunday i was bored to death at home and i hate to stay indoors. i rather bring my kids out. i spent quality time with the boys, reading books to playing toys to bathing and feeding them.

they are so cute and adorable. gosh!



i loved it especially holding conversation with danish.

when he talks, it's all so cuteness.

his speech is more clearer and he can talk to you anything that includes translating.

be it in english or malay.

am so proud of him.

he can speak both languages.

for i hate restraining him from speaking one language.

its a no-no.

must know our roots that we're a malay/Islam.



ooohh... when danish hears the azan he quickly say, Allahuakbar.

find the sejadah and his songkok and pray.

well, it may be inproper but at least he tries to imitate and learns how to pray.

sweet right? i know. hehehe.



i've been puking and having giddness.

im not sure if im pregnant.

if yes, now im not sure if i can take the pressure.

im just not ready for baby no.3

not this year.

not now.

maybe in the latter?



i've been planning to take the birth control pills and can only do so before my 5th day period.

when i went to the doctor, i was late for a few days so no hope.

must wait till next month and the month after next before it takes a full effect on my body.



and they say, should i be pregnant and wishes to keep the baby i must resign before the boss comes to know about it.



sedih you know.

like im being force to abort it or keep it indirectly.

it hurts aborting a baby who is innocent.

im sure he/she too would want to live and not being brought to this world by force.

am not sure how to deal if i'm pregnant.

im really praying hard that i will not be pregnant.



anyways, just want to share that i managed to lose 1.1kg eversince i started work.

hahhaahaha. happy you know knowing that at least i lose a kg.



i'm so engrosed with twilight that i badly wants to read the new moon.

knowing that it's soldout in most bookstores am depending my luck on lizzie aunty if she managed to get hold of the book in her end.



btw, today my mom treat us at Popeye in T3.

danish got a train toy from yai.

and when we asked him, who bought for you he gladly announce that he did.

he said he bought that train and we asked him where did he get the money from.

he answered in a cute way, his money.

hahhaha.



and now it's 6an in the morning and i need to be awake at 7am.

i just can't sleep!!!!!



it's always the financial thingy that left me sleepless night.

urggghhh!