recently the pain that i have been bearing within me is getting worst.
it has always been the gastric flu. but what happens if it's not?
like a stomach cancer.
yeah. i shouldn't be exaggerating but i read articles about the difference between stomach pain and stomach cancer.
and it starting to freak me out already.
omgosh.
i've been suffering this stomach pain since when? teenager.
15. correct me if im wrong.
but yeah.
at 15!
such a long time already.

i told mama about it and she told me to go for a full body check up.
especially my stomach.
hmmm.. i know i'm abit stubborn and reluctant, but to think that i've been suffering in silence for a good 6yrs plus and counting, maybe i should just overcome and brush off the thoughts.
but IF i need to take medication i don't know if im able to cut that out.
after past experience i don't know if i could live up again.
urgh!

fine.
i told mama that i'm planning to take jab every 3 months like what jane is doing.
so, i won't get pregnant.
or maybe i don't want to get pregnant anymore.
it's not any other reason but as simple as i'm not sure if i can cope with an additional mouth and the expenses to bear one.
kids nowdays is so expensive.
it's getting harder to breathe here in singapore.

before anyone going to inject my mind of saying kids bring in rezeki, i just have to note to self that i want to live life comfortably.
eventhough i know kids DO bring in rezeki but what happens if i have to live it simple?
i mean, like all parents they want the best for their kids.
that's what i'm exactly going to achieve on it.

i don't want to waste money on shopping no more.
it's time to save save save and make myself rich so that i can retire early.
haaaa.
fat hope?
maybe?
lets try!

good day humans!
i love you.
muacks.