times like this, i wish i could join in the fun to lala land with the three boys of mine.

i do wonder what's wrong with me.
why can't i have peace sleeping like any other humans?
my mom says it's all psychological thinking and that i'm not even putting an effort to sleep.
if she knows how it feels i bet she won't even say that.
oh well, it's tough making someone understand us if they've never been in our shoes.
right, no?

i'm so lack of sleep that explains the super-oblivious-black-ring-bag beneath my eyes.
you know, the typical panda black ring eye bag.
omygosh!
scream!!!!

my super early plan trip to Kl has to be shorten because it's 99.99% confirmed that my dearest hubby leave will be unapproved.
well, because his probation period is being extend to another three freaking months.
it must be due to the accident MCs.
he has gotten himself an outpatient sick leave instead of hospitalization leave.
how crap could they be?
i mean, spare a thought.
oh, this is such a cruel yet lovely world.
we made plans, god decides.
insya-Allah, my hubby will be working there till the bonding is over.
i can't bring myself to imagine the amount he had to pay if he gets terminated.

i'm very sleepy. no. tired. super tired.
i bathe, feed, milked, entertain, teach my two sons every single day without fail.
with a measly 2 to 3 hours of sleep is definitely insufficient.
i'm super shag by the end of the day yet i have trouble putting myself to bed.
my companion during the wee morning is no other than nurul itik.
we would chat till dawn.
and if she's busy with her little prince, i'm seen playing games be it at miniclip or wherever sites that my fingers leads me to.

since it's the fasting season, i will blog less as this is the month where we'll perform our prayers and it's also the month whereas those naughty ghost being locked up hence the peaceful moment to be able to bring ourselves to god.
i've not been praying for the last few days and i felt so guilty.
i wonder, what's the point of me fasting without praying?
don't you guys feel the way i'm feeling?
i'm really thankful for god for he has never fail to give humans on this earth a rice bowl to fend the family.
be it our pay big or small.
it's still the rezeki that we received from god.
maybe we don't see it or even believe it.
if you guys still thinks i'm lying.
the only answers to clear your doubt is by reading and recite the surah yaasiin and the holy al-quran.

maybe i'm thinking to much though.

oh well.
happy fasting to you muslims out there.

till next time.