for a fact, i really hate dispute.
especially if it's within the family issue.

if u think that sending my kids over to the caregiver gave u such heartache, why don't YOU yourself stay at home and look after them instead of yakking over it non-stop.
besides, why should i listen to you anyway?
i don't get paid by listening to your non-stop excuses, do i?
if i do, by all means, i don't mind.

im so fucking stress that i wished i could yell at hubby.
since hubby is innocent, no point yelling at him.
if not ww3.

and today, she pissed me off again that she disliked my boys to go over to the caregiver house and wants the boys to stay home.
i mean she can't even bathe my youngest and you expect me to let u take care of the boys.
omg!
i can go crazy thinking what will happen to my boys.
i know FIL is capable to take care of my kids.
but two kids at 1 go is super duper tedious and hassle.
especially dan who is super duper uper active.

as i respect my MIL, i don't wished to yell at her.
if it were my mom, confirm my mom dah kena jerit.
cos my only listens when i yell.
that's where she knows im determine.
if my MIL, confirm merajok and later complained to hubby and hubby later WAR with me and the cycle goes on till all of us never talk to each other.
with me ignoring hunz, he can turned MAD.
cos i totally won't be bother to talk to him.
at all.
period.

sometimes, i just feel like venting my anger at her.
i don't know why she likes to find fault and make me so damn fucking pissed off.
i can withstand but over the limit, confirm i want to melatop.
lagi2 i telinga panas.

arrrgghhh...
fuck lah.
always i have to jaga hati orang.
but others tk pernah nak jaga my hati.

fuck fuck fuck.
sooooooooooooooooooooooooo pissed off sia.