it's really sick knowing that someone you place your trust in it....

back stab you.

it's so out of place and now i don't know if i still could express everything to you.


on the other hand, i think it's pretty sick ranting about your partner everytime.
i know, this has totally got nothing to do with me.
either i wish to read it or not.
(this is just a general note. whoever feels the pinch can choose not to read it.)


anyway, i've engaged a babysitter for my precious Dan.
starting from next wednesday onwards, he'll be in a care of my trustee cum bestfriend since my brother broke up with her.

work will commerce soon.
i've got a month or less with my two precious gems.
am making full use of it to spend my precious time with them.


to top it off, i think Dan is way too cranky and i think at times it just get me sick to the brain that i would break down and wail.
since i'm still pledging not to smoke till as long as i can hold on to, i can just cry and cry.
like a cry baby.
only Allah knows how stressful i felt at times.

and i bet, workload isn't that stressful when you're trying to teach your kids some manners here.

Dan inquisitives leaves a footsteps and at times is just too much for me to handle.


hubby has just bought a motobike and i think that has consumed deep into our savings.
it's burning a hole in our bank right now.
he says he only needs this amount but in the end he spent more than the amount he mentioned and it's pretty driving me super nuts.
his oil consumption is way to much.
got tuti some more.
urggghhh!!!!
sometimes i just feel like tearing my heart out explaining my grounds with him.
men just don't get it, don't they?

but still, he makes me happy.
maybe that's why i still love him lots.

at the end of day, i just won't trade my three boys for anything else.
be it more or less.
they're the passion that still burns within me.

till then people.