my paternal grandfather passed on peacefully on wednesday shortly after zuhur. ( i think)
may Allah mencucuri rohnya and tetapkan nya kepada golongan-golongan orang yang beriman.
Amin.
okay, honestly my second sentence, i don't know if i got it right.
history being, our family genes is that our malay stinks.

this past few days, i realised that i've been taking advantage of hubby.
not that i want it that way, but it seems that i've grown to attach to him it seems that way.
i know for sure that i love him and i do feel guilty whenever i'm pretty upset with anything, i would end up scratching him, bite him, kick him and even to an extend of hurt him.
i know, i may sound more of a wife beater but i wished i wasn't.
i'm so dosa seh right now for making him hurt.
his pride and ego is hurt.
shit.

when i'm pregnant with his second kid, i'm prone to hurt him more and i don't want him near me.
funny, ironic but true.
i mean i don't know why i'm feeling this weird feelings.

honey, i'm so sorry.
you did everything you could just to feed dan and me.
you would buy me whenever i want when we go out.
you would even go the extra mile for me.
i love you lots sweets.

i really love you sweets.

you're my only best friend, my lover, my enemy, my boyfriend, my husband my everything.
and i'm glad you're the only one.
i love you hunz!